Five year diary on love, 2018-2023
Love is not consolation. It is light.
-Simone Weil
This five year diary on love has been multi-faceted. It includes drawings, self portraits, video, starting a vegetable garden, audio recordings, painting in the hand of another, objects, textiles, reading, and other mediums.
So far, parts of the project have been shown in:
2020 Art without/with the times?, curated by Daniela Radeva and Luchezar Boyadjiev, Sofia city art gallery
2019 Good mirrors are not cheap, curated by Chiara Cartuccia, Goethe Institut
Exhibition view of showing the project in progress in Sofia city art gallery. Because it’s in progress, I put fragments of my actual studio in the gallery - the chair I’m working on, my table which is an old sewing machine, some books, materials, brushes, other works in progress, an old mirror, a cabinet, and my large number of band-aids I always keep in my studio.
The thing we fought about / The thing we fought about / The thing we fought about…
We are such different people, video and drawing made by holding my lover’s hand, 2018
The blob fish is beautiful in it’s natural habitat
In separate rooms
(I’m drawing)
what are you doing?
2019
The “victory” in our relationship: you know that you’re not a muse to me. I want to know you, 2018
Yvetta, drawn by me in her hand, 2018
2018
It’s Sunday. I’m paralyzed by dismay, fear, horror, anxiety, nightmare, pain, phobia, a dark, dark ocean of black,
-the absolute panic of a close touch;
of the person who knows you…
where to go? how to hide?, 2018
A dream, 2018
Anger, 2019
My flaws – a list to be used when needed.
1. I work too much
2. I demand for certain things to be discussed way too much, for too long
3. I can sometimes be boring
4. I can’t miss lunch
5. I need my solitude (reading for too long for example, et cetera)
6. I have difficulties getting angry
7. I’m ridiculously anxious, full of doubts, and sometimes my crises must be hard on you
8. I’m doing this project
2019